well to late, i tried to talk it out with the parents and they gave me the typical story. So i am going there. If i seek performance i will do either one of 2 things, learn it on my own like i have or go elsewhere after this school. being as i dont really want to move far from home i will finish these 4 years, see what offers i get and move on from there. Atleast im in something i want to be this time. Aerospace was a nightmare for me.